What does it take for you to heal?
Personally, the more I go through life, it feels like healing only happens through more pain.
I’m not specifically talking about physical healing here, although these thoughts could apply there as well, but I’m talking about emotional pain. Spiritual pain. The kind of pain that you can’t see on the surface, but that wrecks havoc internally, under the surface of your veins, organs and insides. The pain that you hide, that you mask, that you bury, that eventually turns into a numbness but rears its wounded head every chance it gets, often in new and improved ways.
That’s the kind of pain I’m talking about healing from. The pain that seems hardest to heal from. What is that process for you, and is it important?
Lately, I’ve been writing a lot, and for me, writing is processing. Processing is where I’ve begun to think more about this healing process because processing has been causing me a lot of pain. It’s been turning up a lot of memories, thoughts and experiences I haven’t addressed in years, and with that, it’s revealing pain that I haven’t seen rear its head in quite some time. I buried those memories. Pretended they never happened and grew a thick skin over them to number the pain, hoping to never think about them or feel them again.
Not healthy, and I wouldn’t recommend.
So, here I sit. Addressing old pain in a new way. Almost talking about it with myself. And I’m honestly not even sure if that’s healthy, but It’s better than what my process was before.
That’s why I ask you, what does it take for you to heal?
-Cliff
Cliff’s Note: We all have unaddressed pain. Search for healing.